We are going to have many firsts and lasts the next few months. It will be the first holidays and Joe's birthday without him. I have no idea what this will be like, but for certain we are bracing for the worst; and after much discussion we have decided to stay home for Thanksgiving but be as far away as possible for Joe's birthday. For Tony and David it is the last Head of the Hooch, McCallie Invitational, state dive meet, Argonaunt and spring crew; and our last Honors Scholars weekend and graduation.
The firsts and lasts seem to be colliding just when we are the most vulnerable. Mike and I try hard to celebrate every part of Tony and David's senior year, but you can see the sadness in our eyes in every picture. As we drive home from McCallie there is always the comment "Joe would be so proud of his brothers" followed by a very long silence.
What we will dread the most, however, is the first anniversary of Joe's death and no conversation is needed since we all know we will be together no matter what.
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